27/09/2011
Hi,
I know not much people are going to read this, but if you are one of those who actually bother, then get ready. Don’t judge or anything. I’m writing this to get my feelings out there.
So, I’m April. I go to MFHS. I am half Filipina (Mum’s Side) & half Vietnamese (Dad’s side). My birthday is on March 31. I love the colour purple, I love cute, little animals, I love eating the foods I crave for. I really love reading! Also, I love horror/animation movies. They are the best.
So, now you know some things of my likings, I will know tell you some stories about me.
On the 12/05/2011, I had this argument thing with my best friend. That night I cut myself on my left arm, at least 10 cuts. It hurt, but I told myself I deserved it. This is the time when I first started to suffer depression. We are now close friends, but I regret having that fight with her. Then again, on 15/05/2011, I cut deeper this time, but only 3 cuts. There was a lot of blood. I don’t regret it. I have suffered depression for at least 2 months. I never called for help, I never told my parents, my friends tried to help me, but couldn’t. I didn’t mind. But I did survive. I do admit, I sometimes try to cut, but I promised my friends, and also, I don’t want to risk my parents finding out. I also admit, that I sometimes think of myself killing myself, suicide. I’m not Emo or anything, but yeah. Life sucks.
Right now, life sucks. My friends seem to ignore me, my parents always piss me off, every single day.
So that’s all from me now, and I’ll come back for more soon.
April -
Backagain;
It’s the 16/11/11. Lol, I thought life was going good. It actually was. Until 2 days ago. Life became shit again. Firstly, my english teacher is so stupid. She’s a shit marker, and she just ruined my life. Also, my friends don’t even pay attention to me any more. There is also waaaaaay too much drama at this school. I can’t rely or trust any one any more. It’s happening all over again. Why can’t my life be good for at least a month? Or a term? If only. But anyway, I’m being depressed now. I’m a freaking loner. My best friend doesn’t realise! Which is so shit. So yeah.. maybe the depression will come back. Lol.. So yeah, that’s all for now.
-April
